Then later on that day, my daughter and I were 'working out' in our basement and this witty and observant 5 year old girl says to me "I'm not strong enough." Bam. That hit me like lightning. I had to stop what we were doing to have a discussion about being enough - being strong enough, and being good enough. She told me that she wasn't strong enough to lift certain things that she sees us as adults lifting. I could see she felt somewhat disheartened and my determination to build a strong minded girl kicked into gear. The conversation led to some affirmations about strength not only of body but of mind and soul.
These stories have led me to discuss an interesting epidemic expanding throughout women, I am certain, in all countries of the world. I experience it myself as I did today, feeling like I wasn't enough to keep up with the demands of 2 young children.
I began to question 'where do these thoughts come from? Where do they start?'
Are we naturally prone to thinking this way or is it something deeper? I always go to the deeper side of things - the surface doesn't always provide the answers for me. As a collective consciousness is this how we become assimilated into our societies by absorbing the mentality of those closest to us? Or do we simply inherit this mentality from our parents? No pointing of fingers here, just simple observations and the keen interest in discovering why this is what it is. In uncovering all of this in my feminine experience in this lifetime, I acknowledge the fact that men too probably experience these same feelings. What I find most empowering is that I have the opportunity to become aware of these thoughts and then simply let them go while replacing them with thoughts that make me feel good and powerful. The difficulty so far is in the frustration I experience as I move through becoming aware of the many thoughts running through my mind on an exhausting basis. I continue to have thoughts that it would be just so much easier to walk through life unconscious then I quickly give my head a shake and understand that I could never go back to living an unconscious life. Why is that? Life is so much richer living in the conscious side of life yet can be so frustrating when faced with the dark side of my old thought processes. Then I think others must be feeling the same way. The conscious women of the world must be sitting in their own homes having similar experiences as myself and feeling somewhat isolated in their pursuit of living a conscious and fulfilling life.
Where is this leading? What I do know is this community of women are conscious women, who in their awakened state, know there is more to life then what we have been taught by those we care about or by those who's duty was to teach us. As we come closer together in this community, I know the momentum of power will inevitably begin changing the world in exponential ways.